it's been so long

since the last time I dropped my tears for a guy this year. note this, 11th August :') and however, it reminds me on last year. may be exactly at these days, I dropped a large amount of tears too. and this year, I did it with the different causes for different people. I never thought I would feel this pain again, I mean this fast.

err

would somebody give me courage to get out of this, errr, what should i call this? i don't even know. i have no idea what i want to write here. the point is, i'm just too afraid of a relationship. i'm afraid to love someone whole-heartedly. especially at this time, what i want to do is just enjoy my 'me' time. could i?please? :)